End of school...2 months of holidays...

Well,I was thinking a lot about what should I write today. Well,do you remeber when I was talking about my bad days? So today is one of thoses days....And I'm really critical about myself,about how my body looks,and how my face looks today.. My minds is my worst enemy right now... I feel huge...I KNOW I shouldn' t take it so serious,but I can't help myslef...And I don't know what to do...I do exercise,and eat clean,healthy....but I can't see any change....Everyone around me is in perfect shape,and I feel like I'm doing something wrong...I know there are more importaint things than how much I weight,or how my belly looks like...But Ijust can't help myself...And I'm sorry I always end up thinking about the worst things....I really wish to be a little baby again,no one care about your weight,you ate whatever you wanted to eat. Everyone was your friend. You didn't care about anything and the worst thing that could happend was when your mom forgot to kiss you goodnight or when you didn't watch yor fave fairy tale...I think we all want to grow up so fast that we don't realize what we have right now...We want to be like our older sister or brother,we want to be adults as our parents...But when we are 5 we don't have to care about reality...I miss these old days...I miss everything about being a liitle kid,and to be honest I have no idea what I will do during these 2 months..I want to get in shape finally,I want to start running everyday,no just when there is time or so,I really want to wake up in the morning and go run...I want to lose that belly fat,and have no fat rolls again,and when shool start again I want everyone to day,"OMG you look so good." or something like that..