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I want to say sorry for my bad english,I know I'm not really good at it,but I'm trying my best.
I will do more tests,more exercise,I'll learn more words,and  awear to you I will get better,and I will improve my english skills. Just have faith in me

Body image and the media

I would love to write something about how  the media can change your Over the past few days, i must admit, i havent felt so good in my body. Ive felt uncomfortable, and not really liking what i saw in the mirror. And everywhen I look I see just "diet" "loose weight fast" "skinny is good" or so,I see those models,reporters,singers,actresses...and I hear the same words in radios too.. I think is bad..
I don't feel comfortable when I hear people around me talking about diet,and how fat they are (when in fact they are thin,and they don't need to change anything)
These medias can change our thinking about our bodies..
Everything with nowadays and media is just wrong...You see? 
Where is the time when Marylin Monroe was synonym of beauty? 
Where is the time when it was okay to be overweight?
Where is the time when no one cares about how your body looks.
I'm asking these questions too often...
I'm really sad to see those girls how they try to have an E.D. likegirls don't be stupid why would you want it? It't living hell,I can tell by myself...

End of school...2 months of holidays...

Well,I was thinking a lot about what should I write today. Well,do you remeber when I was talking about my bad days? So today is one of thoses days....And I'm really critical about myself,about how my body looks,and how my face looks today.. My minds is my worst enemy right now... I feel huge...I KNOW I shouldn' t take it so serious,but I can't help myslef...And I don't know what to do...I do exercise,and eat clean,healthy....but I can't see any change....Everyone around me is in perfect shape,and I feel like I'm doing something wrong...I know there are more importaint things than how much I weight,or how my belly looks like...But Ijust can't help myself...And I'm sorry I always end up thinking about the worst things....I really wish to be a little baby again,no one care about your weight,you ate whatever you wanted to eat. Everyone was your friend. You didn't care about anything and the worst thing that could happend was when your mom forgot to kiss you goodnight or when you didn't watch yor fave fairy tale...I think we all want to grow up so fast that we don't realize what we have right now...We want to be like our older sister or brother,we want to be adults as our parents...But when we are 5 we don't have to care about reality...I miss these old days...I miss everything about being a liitle kid,and to be honest I have no idea what I will do during these 2 months..I want to get in shape finally,I want to start running everyday,no just when there is time or so,I really want to wake up in the morning and go run...I want to lose that belly fat,and have no fat rolls again,and when shool start again I want everyone to day,"OMG you look so good." or something like that..

love yourself

 

 

Don't forget how far you have come

Guys please take care of yourself. Eat,sleep.smile,do anything you want. Just for one day,do whatever you want. Stop thinking about what you people think about you...For one day,be just yourself....Forget everything bad that happened...
I used to spent whole day worrying what people think about me,I used to just sit and listening to music when I was in public,I almost fotgot how to smile,and be happy...I didn't eat,I didn't sleep.I didn't smile...I stoped to be myself,I almost died...But I started to recovery...And there is nothing better you can do for yourself,...
Now I'm almost mentaly healthy and everything is alright,I'm smiling,and happy with myslef...And I like myslef again...I would lie if I tell you I'm 100% okay,and everything is good... Because,well there are bad day too....And I HATE those days,because I'm angry,bad,upset....And I'm mean....And I hurt people around me,I mean,when I have one of those days I say the things I really don't mean...So please,please just take care of yourself,don't try to be depressed,anorextic or any other E.D. becasue it is ILLNESS not trend,and I can tell you I'll ruin your life,you can even imagine how...
my journey isn't over,I'm only half way.....
And if you're fighting your inner demons please,go here: http://living-with-anorexia.blogspot.com/

She helped me a lot,I'm so glad I found out about her... And if youre asking if I have an eating disorder,the answer is Yes,I had (have) ED...I'm recovering from anorexia nevrosa,but I think I can tell I'm half recovered and I'm happy with myself again,so for everyone out there you can make it,you can be yourself again...I used to have depression,anxiety,panic attacks,anorexia for such a long time,but my parents,and doctors helped me...So please let your parents,doctors,friends etc. help you  too,they care about you so much...And they love you just the way you are,they don't care how you look like,they love you because you are you,you are original,perfect little piece of this world,and the world wouldn't be the same without you...YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL,IMPORTANT,PERFECT....