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Cuties

It have been more than a month since my leg surgery and I still can't move,I can do few steps,but
 immadetaly my leg stars hurt and I have to get back to the bed. And well,I have gained few kgs. But it's okay,I don't really care about it , The leg is more importain for me now. As soon as I will be able to workout I do it Also I eat some sweets time to time,and my mom is happy when she see me eating chocolate,because I didn't eat sweets for morre than 2 years,and I was thinking about it. I think I will make something like "cheat meal" I would like to call it treat meal. And I will try to eat more new things. (coconut milk is my new favorit :3)

The first workout I will do is going to be Jillian's 30 days sherd,then it will be T25 or Bob Harper,and after all these workouts I want to start with Kayla's 12weeks BBG,also I would like to start running,cause my brother wants to start running and he wants me to join me.
Maybe I will start running in summer when everything end up okay. :)

This year I want to lose weight in healthy way,I want to enjoy food and my life too.

modes and their eating habits

Eating disorders and pressure to diet are not the only issue. Kate Moss's recent revelations that she wasn't fed when she started out came as no great surprise.You're broke, you're tired, you don't speak the local language, you’re 15-years -old, and no one thinks to feed you: you're going to bed hungry

the truth about models

I've read one article where little girl (10 years) asked one model what is her workout routine and what she is eating because that little girl would like to looke like her "I would die to look like you." Is this really what 10 years old should said? She would rather die and have body like model than be alive and have an average body shape?

It was 3 years since I'm vegan and I love this lifestyle. I can't imagine eat animals,or their products.
I try my best to help them,to make the world better place.
And once someone asked me "Will be your man vegan too? And what about your kids,are you going to have kids? Will you raise them as vegans too?" My answer is: It woud be great if my future husband is vegan or just vegetarian,but my parents and brother are meateaters and I don't have problems with thm they recpect me and I do the same for them. We have meat free monday and fridays. And yes I want to raise my kids as vegans,"

Life is too short to worry about your weight...So why am I doing it?

It was my birthday last month (18).....
And I should be probably worrying about school,friends,boys and stuff..So why am I so obsess with how much I weigh or what body shape do I have. Ican say I'm recoved from anorexia (thanks god) but anyways,I think there will be always part of me,that will wish to be as skinny as I used to...
Sometimes I really miss the body I had...But I don't miss how much I hated myself,and I don't miss the fact I didn't eat anything....I also don't miss the tiredness...and those inner voices...
I'm actally glad I'm recovered...But those pics with happy healthy people who looks like greek gods and goddess don't make me really happy,because I'm trying really hard to look like them,but I think I can't do it....Nothing works on me,

I tried lot of things,and I still do.....I workout 6x per week,I eat heathly and enough,so my body is not tired anymore,but I can't see any muscles..I know they are somewhere there,I just can't see it thru the fat I do have on my belly...But everybody says I look fine.....But,do you know the feeling when somebody is telling you you are okay,fine,you look great,and another bullshit,but you still feel like the ugliest person ever? I do....

I still have those days when I feel okay with my body,and then those days when I do not....
My parents what the best for me,so they are buying me all the food I want to eat (sometimes it really expensive,and I feel embaressed...) Why can't I be the old good me,before all my life started to be hell?

I swear it is better now,and I'm really glad I'm not so skinny anymore but,I'm sad a little that I can't have body I want...Everything was hard for me exspecially the last school year...Now it is better a little but I still have some problems,and plus I do some healthy problems with my stomach and digestive tract, and gall-bladder oh and liver,so I'm pretty screwed up....There are lots of problems I have but those are some of the bigiest one.....

I gained a little more weight,and the reason is maybe the fact I have those problems,but I can say I'm starting to feel comfortable in my own skin,and I didnt felt like this for such a long time....


I have no idea why I wrote this...I just needed to let it out....